mrs.Sunshine

some write ups

2009-06-02T18:38:00.000+08:00

So little time yet so much things to do. I really wonder how can i cope with every single things. No matter that, i shall not surrender when i've not fight fully in this battle. For I shall remain in silence and continue striving harder as it gets.

I've went through alot this past year. It taught me from the beginning and though I gave up at the end of the journey. I sat and ponder. It was really a painful journey for me, to listen, hear and keep it all to myself. When things like that happen, i was startled, amazed, dissapointed and lastly i felt clueless. From this sentence, people can make alot of judgement. Somehow, i feel that it is safer being in a smaller circle of friends. I know alot of them, i talk, laugh and joke around. One thing for sure, i did not share my thoughts, my feelings or whatever things that I see through my own opinion. Not that I choose not to, through experience, and security purposes, i think thats the best move. Tell me i am a coward, self-centered, judgemental and the list can just goes on. Have you ever thought of really being in my own shoes and think what i am thinking, decide what is needed at the moment of time. We work differently from others and that I should respect. Somehow I am always left unanswered, clueless or maybe its just me.

i begin to think and ponder to every single aspect.

i dont need an answer or symphaty from any readers.

because, my self-esteem is not even getting any better.
its like a nightmare, playing around in my dreams..

2009-05-23T18:16:00.002+08:00

i think i make a mess in my life...
a big big mess which i cant describes...

currently in the library alone... all alone by myself...
decided to went out although its getting late..
not much nag from ibu...
got lappy from bro...
and i got hook with physcology book lately...
and read and read and read...
not all book that attracts me some of dem get me hang of it...
am i really into this??
ouh my...
let times tell us...

some updates...
i dunnoe what im trying to do in this life...
just i need to hang on it...
be more patient insyaallah will overcome everything soon...
hope that soon...

kae2 got to go back to work as i need to complete some typing...

2009-05-21T00:20:00.001+08:00

are all guys desperate??

thats make mw thinking haha..
not going to explain to detail...
let it be a secret...
jeng jeng jeng....

2009-05-19T11:02:00.004+08:00

been days not update...

alhamdulilah i was call for an interview...
shouldnt go more as i dunnoe weather im selected or not khehe...

life have been difficult i think since last post...
as usual ups and down...

but am happy that i still had my love ones by my side...
mum, dad, miss J, misseazie

i dunnoe wats in my mind rite now.. lots of thinks have been thinking and misseazie realise that ive been daydreaming alot lately... *she realise yest when i was out with her*
ntahlah byk sangat perkara aku fikir...

klah think thats for now... let me be for who i am...
and i really wish.. dat i could start a new life with a new me and run away from those people...
time to independent....

2009-05-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

hey yeah.. ive starting mia.. coz now its like to many things to blog.. haha...

kae nothing much to update...

just dat... ive topple my life....

haiz... just wait and see lah...

im tired and exhausted of everything aready... haha

dats all for now...

think so haha...

wanna sleep!! tired aready lor!!!

muahaha

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

2009-05-10T12:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!
to all mothers out there...
and also to my granny who is currently not in singapore...
also to my mother!!!
shes the great bestfren of mine!!...
im happy to have her and to share everything with her...

yeah..
we had early celebration dat is on friday...

here are some of the pics dat i took...

2009-05-07T20:23:00.002+08:00

its been hard to make decision in 2 weeks time...

i noe it was too sudden...

but i have no choice but to make decision...

im sorie....

its hard for me to let u go...

but its hurt to hold on you...

and it makes me heart broken...

hope i will get rid over...

still can we be friends??

i noe dat wont be possble but its my fault...

2009-05-06T11:09:00.002+08:00

why i feel so sad of sudden???
sad because im happy
or sad because dat i just throw him like dat??
but watever happen....
new chapter of life....

yeah im starting a new chapter of life...
everything new of me...
and i dunnoe till when this can lead...
hope it is forever....
not to worry i still have the love ones ard me....

yeah... aqilah a strong will person....
it wont let me down watever happen....
yeah...
in few days time insyaallah all will recover...
insyaallah...

2009-05-05T13:14:00.002+08:00

its hurt to let go someone who u use to love them before...

before its continue hurting you better you walk out of the life rather then stay to make u more hurt...

after telling the truth.. its like finally...

but i feel the hurt...

the hurts which i cant figure out...

but to let your love ones go will make u free...

free from hurting yourself...

free from everything...

but its not going to feel easy as u have to hear which people will criticise you...

but not much worry.. one day... they will shut their mouth once they are tired...

and im tired of holding into something which it is sharp and keep bleeding...

not to hurt me further... i have to let it go...

and not because of anybody but dis is my decision...

and have some respect for the elders...

mom noes me the best..

the best for your future...

the best in me...

and dun ever say "dat is your mum"

and dat show dats u dun have respect for her....

syurga terletak di tapak kaki ibu...

and im obeying her....

i still have respect for her...

nothing u do now will gain her trust anymore....

even how u going to redeem it....

u use to close with them...

they noe nothing about what u said to me..

till one day the truth reveal...

and also...

somebody come to ask abt me...

in less then two years...

im sorie i just cant go on further...

hope u will respect my decision...

lets go seperate ways....

i noe we did promise...

but after considering what u have told me off makes me think about my future...

now u tell me all those words..

wat if one day we are married... easily u told me off...

is it fair for me??

or am i being tooo soft hearted??

another thing about u is...

entahlah...

i shouldnt say it... coz its disrespect...

but no matter what...

i use to love you but my feeling fade away which explain now i have to let it go....

ill promise to pay you back what i owe u...

whatever happen hope we still can be friends...

2009-05-05T01:13:00.001+08:00

tell u something.. everyone who is around me when i let dem listen to CUBA for the first time addict sia... like me... hahahaha.....

just waiting for the right time....

once out will be the decision day....

YOU'RE NOT SORRY

2009-05-05T00:41:00.001+08:00

All this time I was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no, ohhh

You're not sorry no no ohhh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohhh

You're not sorry, no no ohhh

2009-05-03T23:26:00.002+08:00

what should i feel now??

ntah lah..

to let him go... is it my fault

or just let it stay... things will be worse in future

Ya Allah tunjuk kanlah jawapan nyer...

im getting hook.. but i noe wat im doing is wrong...

all the decision in my hand...

wat if....

should i let him go??

but i noe not now.. please...

argh!!

i receive a fone call just now...

and it make me thinking till now...

what should dat suppose to mean??

it makes me uneasy...

and i have to wait for everything tomorrow....

argh!!

please make me strong...

as strong i can be to make the right decision...

feel like crying....

should i walk out while the situation is not right??

should i walk out coz just dat i got the perfect person??

should i???

i really got all this mix feeling....

i feel guilty...

but i dun feel love bond with him.. ive tried about 1yr plus but simce after an incident early of this year something make me change my heart...

i need someone who can respect me....

2009-05-03T00:05:00.002+08:00

is your heart change suddenly or u make use of it??

entahlah....

people change am i right??

sooner or later i have to tell the truth....

its difficult but i have to....

but where should i start??

or should i wait till 1 more month??

what should i do???

had fun today.. walaupun penat...

haha

this idiot forget to bring the important thing if u are out....

haha

kae.. although took public, we almost cover some areas....

hes totally a sincere person...

ahh... now im tired think till here... ders another part of tommorrow...

dunnoe weather my mum going to nag or not...

hopefully not...

haha.. take care....

2009-04-30T02:05:00.003+08:00

dan engkau...
tiba-tiba sahaja kan...
tak sangka...
tapi walaupun engkau bergitu baik kepada aku, aku tkkan mudah percaya dengan mu...
hari ini hari khamis genap seminggu...
dan siapa yang bertahta dihatiku??
entahlah...
biar dengan sendirinya dia datang mencari ku...
penat aku mencari jawapannya...
satu hari nanti....
semua akan terbongkar....

hope it miteb first and last..

2009-04-30T01:51:00.002+08:00

kenapa sekarang...
kenapa tak dahulu semasa kau meluahkan kata-kata itu...
tidak mungkin kerana dia...
pernah suatu masa hati aku hancur kerana luahan dan kata2 mu itu...
aku kuat kan diri...
memberi engkau sekali lagi peluang...
pernah kah engkau mengunakan peluang itu??
hari demi hari, detik demi detik...
cinta ku untuk mu runtuh...
pernah kah engkau terfikir untuk bertanyakan kepadaku...
semurah itu kah aku kepada engkau??
nampak ajer aku senang memaafkan engkau tapi luka-luka di hatiku tingalkan kesan yang dalam...
aku diam selama ini..
tak pernah meluahkannya kepada sesiapa...
aku tahu, kenapa sekarang...
siapa aku dihatimu??
aku boleh agak jawapan mu...
adakah itu ikhlas??
tak semudah itu engkau menjangkakan...
engkau lain tk seperti yang lain...
entah kenapa mesti sekarang...
terima kasih atas segalanya...
dan pengorbanan yang telah engkau lakukan...
bukan sekarang satu saat nanti....

CUBA

2009-04-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

Cuba kau dengar
cuba kau cuba
diam bila ku cuba
tuk berbicara dengan kamu

Pernahkah kau ada
bila ku perlu
tuk meluahkan rasa hati

Dan bila kau bersuara
setia ku mendengar
agar tenang kau merasa

Siapa
sebenarnya aku padamu
mungkin sama dengan teman lain
yang bisa kau buat begitu
dan bila
tiada lagi teman bermain
kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
itulah aku…padamu

Cuba kau lihat
cuba kau cuba
renung ke mata aku
bila ku kaku melihatmu

Pernahkah kau ada
bila ku perlu
tuk menyatakan rasa sakit
dalam diri

Dan bila kau perlu
setia ku menunggu
agar senang kau merasa

Siapa
sebenarnya aku padamu
mungkin sama dengan teman lain
yang bisa kau buat begitu
dan bila
tiada lagi teman bermain
kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
itulah aku…padamu

Maafkan kerana aku tak pernah
terlintas tuk menulis pada mu
salahkan ku
tak mungkin lagi aku meminta
untuk kau mendengar..
untuk kau melihat ke mataku

Siapa
sebenarnya aku padamu
mungkin sama dengan teman lain
yang bisa kau buat begitu
dan bila
tiada lagi teman bermain
kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
itulah aku…padamu

2009-04-27T01:34:00.002+08:00

im not sleeping yet for now....
got mixture of feeling....
nah not now to tell soon i think...

saturday....
fun.. doubt so...
tuition for 1h30min at hougang...
mit Dear at vivo and he was super late and i was not in the good mood with him instead i just treat him the way im suppose...go along with the flow...
his family had bbq at labrador park and invited e so just come along...
from 4pm till 10pm i think....
oklah bbq kan so wat do u expect...
nothing much indeed....

sunday....
was sleeping till 10 am... stomach pain due to going to toilet and also hungry....
eat super late breakfast and had my lunch together ard 2.30pm....
dats was the rice for the day....
den afternoon, was on the fone with miss.J all the way till she decide to came over my place...
so mit her at cwp as ibu need to buy somethings and went to woodlands lama to buy a fish... goldfish....
den went to S11 to have an afternoon tea...[by the time it was 6plus haha] can consider as dinner seh....
we had spring chicken and bbg wing... supper delicious... yum yum.. haha
den head back to home...
wait for 'P.F' to call and he make 3 calls before he go to sleep...
first two calls was at work and the last call is at home...
and here i am blogging....

and tell u liltle dirty secret.....
im waiting for tommorrow.. i mean today..
going out at later part of today haha....
excited giler babe.. hahaha....
kae2 wanna go to bed nanti nak kluar ngantok giler...
haha... tc.. guddy nite....

2009-04-26T20:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fun but looking forward for tommorrow....

jeng jeng jeng....

2009-04-25T01:49:00.002+08:00

its not a waste to share ur feeling with somebody espeacially when u are in guilt...
told Lil Bro abt my situation, indeed he told me the truth lah seh.. and yar i did told him the real situation and he say he noe he noe...
yar yar yar...
kan dik kan.. haha...
thanx adik for listening and sharing...
i love it man..
ouh not forgeting miss.J... shes the first person to noe....
atlast the feeling get rid.. haha
waiting for this 'P.F piggy back man' to call but... haha
think he was too tired as he need to report to work as early as 2am....
haha kae wired kan tiba2 i tell abt someone.. haha
kae die tk important...
important is i need a secure job noe!!!
any lobang????
haha...
dik.. i wanna go out on mon how?? any suggestion?? should i??
kae should be sleeping now... bsk tuition lah seh....
eh salah i mean later at 11a.m.... but must awake by 9 if i dun wan to be late as it is at hougang....
and yar....
hp gue... line kene ptg.... haha kesian... but no worries will pay asap...
kesian kpd sape2 yg ingin mengontek saya tk dpt....
eh mcm first time type blog in malay...
kae2 its campur....
dahlah nak tdo!!! guddy nite....

p.s to 'P.F piggy man'... waiting....

2009-04-24T14:40:00.001+08:00

i think im going nuts!!!!!!
ouh god!!!!!!!
ya allah ya tuhan ku.. terang kan hati hamba allah mu ini...

yar something happen...
some people say "dun play with fire!!"

argh.. i really hate the feeling....

2009-04-22T23:51:00.002+08:00

do we have choice in life??

The purpose of life is to fight maturity.

is it true??

Life is something that everyone should try at least once.

The secret of a good life is to have the right loyalties and hold them in the right scale of values.

.....y do i have a sudden feeling of missing people....
i miss...
....Lil Fren
....A.C.C
....Azriba
....Lil Cuzzie
miss chatting and laughing with dem...

You are my best friend through thick and thin. When
You reach for my hand you touch my heart. You are
The bestest friend that i can have.

You are there for me when i need you the most. You
Cheer me up when i am down. If i am about to cry u
Make me smile. You are my bestest friend and i can
Not lie.

You listen to me and give me advice, advice that comes
Straight from the bottom of your precious heart. You are
My best friend in the whole wide world and i couldn't ask
God for a little bit more.

We are going to grow older, and things will change but our
Friendship will forever still remain. I'll make new friends but
That won't change because you will always be my best friend.

I'd like to mean as much to you as you mean to me. I'd like to
Be some help to you as you have been to me. I'd like to know
That as we grow old our lives will change but that our

Friendship will still remain.

Me and you will never be apart maybe in distance but never in
Heart for our friendship is way to strong to let it go off
just like

No matter what life has destined for us
I know that our friendship will never die.

2009-04-22T01:36:00.002+08:00

"All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on."

"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment."

"I love life because what more is there."

"Hold my hand and I'll take you there, somehow, someday, somewhere."

"I would rather have one smell of his hair or one touch of his hand than an eternity without it."

"It's true we don't know what we've got until its gone, but we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will."

"Even though you're not here and nowhere to be found, my heart says you're still here and everywhere to be found.
So, here I am, all by myself, thinking of you - no one else. There's a feeling inside and as hard as I try, it just won't go away."

"If I was blind, you would make me see. If I was deaf, you would make me hear; and if I was dumb, a word would come out of the boundaries of my lips.
Though miles may lie between us, we're never far apart, for friendship doesn't count the miles, it's measured by the heart.
A true friend walks in when the whole world walks out.
and will walk the long way ."

2009-04-22T00:25:00.002+08:00

hey im here.... nyahahaha....
ermm nothing much just dat entah lah kan...
wanna talk to the people dat i use to talk with but its like going far....

where are u??
and how r u??
hope u are doing well der...
i realy miss ur voice...
wonder if u are free on saturday...
wanna ask u out coz i noe i owe u one...

another thing...
i dunnoe where this is leading to...
i mean left a mth away and i scared dat it wont happen...
ouh gosh...
a.c.c..... r u der?? u mad at me??

ermmm... yar i left with u.. but u also busy with school and family...
i miss hang out with u..
when will it be??
next time round my treat wokaes...

ouh yar...
monitor spoil for the second time and i guess dis time cant be use...
searching for a new one tomorrow...
yeaps...

Dear....
at times when i to think again what u said before is true...
do i have only u??
yeah.. but spending time with u is the most wonderful thing...
do i have other option like frens??
am i a bad person to have friends ard??
most of my times now i spend with is my liltle gemok...
and my tuition and my dearest Dear...
kan Dear kan....
can i have a picnic this saturday??

watching the sunset with u is the thing dat i really appreciate it most of all...
having ur love is one of the thing dat make me feel secure..
and having u by my side is just like im the happiest person in the world...
ermmm....
not only u Dear...

but having my liltle gemok makes my day....
having him makes me feels appreciated....
hes my everything to me...

and having my family by my side is the greatest thing ever....

aqilah mlm nie mcm emo jer.. hahahaha...
just wanna share wats the feeling...
im happy those people by my side....
and im happy for those people who have found their way...

actually i miss somebody very much....
hope she can give me a call...
Lil Fren........

2009-04-20T23:58:00.002+08:00

okae... u noe it...haha
change my blogskin.. haha...
tkde kerje.. mmg dasar tkde kerje.. terlalu rajin kot...

niwae.. lots of things happen lately.. weekdays is as per normal...
weekends will make it special.. as usual...

last weekend, saturday 18 april, was a trip down to bukit panjang with Dear..
its to his aunty house.. her cousin had a mini wedding der...
from 3pm till 7plus.. and tell u dat i feel damn tired although did nothing..
padahal dudok ajer tau... got my reason y i am tired haha...
so called not enuf sleep... thursday/friday nite sleep ard 1 or 2 am woke up at 8 all the way till friday/saturday 3.30am and woke up at 4 plus continue help ibu sleep ard 6plus and woke up at 8 and continue helping ibu.. fuh...
so and dats y i feel tired haha... esp tk buat pape...
went off ard 7.45pm.. den tot of head down home instead we went to yishun dam.. tell u although its nothing but fuh.. it was awesome.. haha..
and we did plan to have a picnic der one day to view sunset...
rch home ard 10... den sleep ard 12.. watch chinese movie with family...

nora msg abt sunday outing trip down to botanic garden...
and i say.. okae if its not too early in the morning...
so sunday is a head down to botanic garden.. which make me say wow.. hahahaa...
its a so called meet up with some of nora itqan camp gerls...
from 12plus till 2pm...
den head down back home.. i was tired..khehe...

day by day pass... feel something wrong..
will avoid from it for the moment...
im sorie if i did make a mistake...
niwae u make it u sound mad at me... r u??
entahlah...

Dear.. i miss you!!!! hahaha...
(kae my external hardisk is not here to load pics.. next time)

see yar ard next time... tc...
should make myself busy.. busy with home chores and tuition.. so i can just ignore the rest and will keep loving the loves ones...

2009-04-03T00:29:00.003+08:00

i dunnoe wats up with me all this while...

im totally frustrated and fed-up...

i should relex and.. shouldnt go further...

just to let this anger out..

and i will stop meeting u or easy say...

i wont go out with u anymore till im ready...

the dates falls on 28 outing

2009-03-30T00:52:00.008+08:00

updates!! haha...

yupz shu kamu bangun lambat!!! hahaha...
the plan was 10.30 to mit up..
tell u something..
sempat ku pergi jogging and took my own sweet time to siap...
plan was mit up early so we can get to henderson wave...
luckily.. this gerl wake up.. and mit up ard 11.45...
took train and off we go..
reach habourfront ders a trail to henderson wave...
a few steps up... and.. off we turn back and we walk down...
haha
penat lah seh..
its like my leg are aching coz i go for 3km run in the morning and expected me to follow the trail w/o the right gear??
ouh my gosh..
den we took bus to the nearest henderson wave..
took all the way up the stairs.. fuh.. 3 storey high i think...

in the end we found our way....

and yeah we follow the trail and guess wat we found this....

and yeah... ape lagi camwhoring lah.. hahaha...
thought of walking all the way till end of the bridge...
not till 1/4 we turn back..
y??
coz it was soooo damn hot and im sweating... haha
so we chill take a sit.. take photo.. and yeah had fun...
"pakcik" msg me abt the movie and yeah told him im going include this gerl and Dear...
so went to vivo mit dem ard 2.30.. shows at 3...
told her.. "kalau cerita merepek kau tk ketawa aku refund.. aler stakat 8 bucks jer..."
haha...
and guess wat she sat beside me and laugh like hell haha..
dat means the tckt are worth it.. haha...
told u rite shu...
ouh.. we watch mall cop... best...
den we went to look for food..
went to habourfront banquet...
sit and order as me and shu damn hungry..
the three of us sit eat talk shit and off we go and chill...

its time for shu meet her AYM..

and so she went off...
wanted to accompany her badly but she say..
go with him.. and i say oklor... haha
plan was to mit her at cityhall esplanade... but in the end we go two ways..
she and her AYM and i and GPG (not all of dem only 6 of us)...
but before we left... we mit again.. to bid goodbye...
and tell u something.. seriously this gerl is fun...
tak kesah lah lau adik pon adik lah...
and to AYM.. u guys are gerek...

after bid goodbye.. GPG went for sheesha...
reach home exactly 11.30pm..
and hell yar.. it was fun.. haha

shu oh shu boleh kite pergi lagi??
nyahaha..
till here.. tc....

2009-03-27T12:15:00.001+08:00

Feel excited...
tomorrow outing...
been long time since have outing with friends...
Sorie Dear... cant go out with u..

annual nite cycling 2009

2009-03-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

as per promise.. i will have a proper update abt anc...
dunnoe where to start and could i start from the scratch??

first meeting was.. ermm.. ok2..
like onli me and nora and u.hafiz the seniors...
giving out the task and such.. okies...
and some peeps are new... and though they should ask opinion but....

i and some of the friends start the thing with scratch from nothing till theres something wort it...
and credit to them...
and u dunnoe this person till u can be like sister to her.. haha

2nd meeting didnt attend due to some reason...

third meeting - darul makmur...
dats where i found myself useless in there...
but in the end i fell worth it...
i almost fall out from it but lucky ders some people to give me support...
credits to u dat i make myself strong and continue the journey...

new peeps need to learn soemthing as the old peeps will not be ard soon...
but why??
ermmm... kae lupe kan...

alhamdulilah everything goes well...
from assyafaah till east coast par... 28km
and finish it less den 4hr...
whoah... its cool and damn surprising kan... haha
applause for u guys man who did it...
without certern people i noe thins cant go on...
haha

and the theme is....
A JOURNEY TO REMEMBER....

and yar i remember it.. will remember it.. how i go trhough the thick and thin.. how i keep grudges... how people hate me so much.. and how i can have a new sis and have an excellent bond with her.. even the brothers.. how i learn to handle a chores situation.. how i hate people of its ego and also its characteristic... how i do two things at one time.. help out other person task.. and more...

hey.. im sorry if i got the feel of hating u and i noe u r mad to me.. please at time u have to wake up.. but its useless for us to hate each other just because of this.. lets let it go coz it have end and hug each other for the new chapter...

2009-03-23T14:46:00.003+08:00

been awhile never updates pics..
here are the pics of happy moment...

2009-03-22T14:04:00.001+08:00

having a thought of going holiday..
can i pls mum.. onli me and me...
feel like wanna have my own time...

2009-03-22T13:56:00.001+08:00

ANC was fun..
alhamdulilah everything goes welll...
reach ecp at 4am.. super fast...
will have a proper update soon... tc...

2009-03-19T01:27:00.004+08:00

have u ever had a friend dat remember almost everything about u??
evry single thing abt u no matter what....

yar i did have one..
and i appreciate it..
even my boyfriend cant remember almost every single thing abt me but he do...
and to my surprise..
he even wish my birthday on the exact time..
but not my boyfriend...
even he still can remember what we talk and first time meet....
im chatting with him now and its like a flash back...
frankly..
first time went to vivo with him...
when i go to vivo i dunnoe y i keep thinking abt him...
yar people mite say im not greatful to have him.. but nvm its okae...
coz i have Dear.. i should appreciate him...

2009-03-17T01:20:00.002+08:00

still infront of comp.. and yet sleepy...

reading a friend blog..
how she miss her friend and her school...

did some relection.. how i miss those days.. how i could turn back the time...
but all of us noe.. its useless.. we are going forward...

then suddenly something struck me...
i miss Lil LaLa..
i really miss her wondering how she's doing rite now..
i wanna mit up with her!!! please!!
3years of friendship.. lots of things going thru with her..
people talk as they like and we just ignore it..
hey.. okae tiba2 emo when i think about her...
i miss u lala!!
we should mit up soon yar...

and im sorry if thers last min alot of changes u could not blame me okae...
u also got last min changes and me too.. im soooo sorie.. i noe u r so mad abt it... hope u understand...

2009-03-13T02:03:00.003+08:00

its 0204am in the morning.. im here doing my slide presentation...
preparing for my target board...
jadi org jagan ego jangan proud off jangan degil...
if u still dun want to let it go and still degil.. u will get it...
or easy u take all the reaponsibilities...
thanx...
waiting for today to end and watching whats the finishing line...
taking care...

2009-03-11T21:56:00.001+08:00

latest among lates.. haha...
kae merepek..
i really damn dis guy by the name FAUZEE!!!
he change my route again.. out of safety concern i change it..

DEAR MR FAUZEE.. BE PREPARED FOR FRIDAY AS I WILL BE WELL PREPARED!!...

now im too sick to do it...

dats all thanx....

2009-03-11T19:39:00.003+08:00

another post.. hahax...
first thing...
i want my sweet voice back!! ouh man i lost my voice seh dis morning...

i had the feeling wanna getting sick since sat..
but i make myself feel strong...
den yest dah batok and sakit tekak semacam...
and yet i went for anc recce.. haha...
by the time the whole journey or the whole night my voice getting different...
i did expected of losing voice as i did experince it before..
and tadaaaa today i really lost it muahhahaa..
and i have to skip tuition..
coz i noe i cant manage to teach and reschedule all my tuition back...
its like ouhno!!

and here i am sitting infront comp and blogging.. hahaha...

tell u something.. since last month its like me and Dear had a frequent mit..
its like since he change his bike... its like ade atau tkde duit we went out...
i think sebanyak kite bersabar disitu lah rezeki akan bertambah...
alhamdulilah dis sun we are 1year 3mths.. haha...
actually tak trfikir nak kire.. but den its like trglance at calender...
haha...
but semakin hari sayang ku terhadap die bertambah hahaha...
kaes macam paham...
he mite b fat and tk handsome... but budi bahasa his attitude all u cant easy get...
tol tak Dear.. muahaha...

2009-03-01T23:41:00.003+08:00

whoa.. quite long never update...
hahaha...
keas wats the latest??
ermmm...
tuition... anc for now...
hahaha...

seems to be great...
have my own life i guess...
haha
my own time i mean...

atlast i can teach my own brother haha...
with lots of patience muahaha...

went out yesterday...
from morning before sunrise till sunset...
whoa amazing rite...
haha
the nite before... friday sleep at 3am... wake up before 6am... on saturday...
went to kota kinabalu... atok sedara house...
was told by granma dat he's sick.. so went to visit...
kite adik beradik jakon seh...
its like whoooo... lots of animals around the house...
around 10 types of animals i think...
let me guess... ders swabala (angsa) duck (itik) chicken(ayam) turkey(ayam belanda) monkey rabbit cats squrrel 3 types of fish talapia and 2 more i forget the name and easy say lots more lah... hahaha...
so its like fun for us.. esp my gemok.. he run in the chicken cage to catch chicken and all of us really have lots of fun...
and guess wat we bring home 2 baby rabbits.. hahaha...
nasib lah kau nak...

kae den went to giant to shop after dat went home as montel got plan and me too...
nasib tidak berbau...
once reach singapore it was raining heavily... kat jb tk nk ujan tau...
so text Dear and he told me hes otw to my house...
went out ard 5 plus.. raining so called stop... but den rain again went we almost reach at cwp...
so we went to popular my idea.. haha and spend ard 2hrs der haha... melapau kan...
tu anak nasib baik nk layan...
den his friends text and met up at ecp...
sampai jer ujan lebat haiz..
eat chill lepak everything den went home... rch hm ard 10 plus haha...
ujan nyer pasal lah kite balik cepat tk jadi g mustafa... hahaha

but i did had fun wif Dear yest...

think dats all...
yeah.. tommorrow tuition at taman jurong and sembawang... ouh man going to be dead tired...
so montel sorry cant go to gym wif u or not by the time i teach im flat haha...

keas tc....

2009-02-21T00:02:00.003+08:00

at last...
decided to end my job at 7-11/shell...
coz im tired working der.. gaji dah lah sikit transportation rabak...
ermmm...
for now im giving tuition.. like 2 kids..both P1
abit rush for me...
but now i really can get organise my schedule as im ending my job at 7-11/shell haha...
tot of working at shop and save nearby my house...
save transportation kan kan... haha

kae got something to say....
dis two kids im teaching are P1...
both of dem are kidal... so cergas... hahaha
yg satu nie budak lelaki die lagi he write sume mirror image sume tebalik and also dari bawah ke atas.. pelik ehk.. but insyaallah die lah anak terpandai...
yg lagi sorg nie budak perempuan cina... die pon kidal.. haha..
but both of dem cute.. and i have lots of patient teaching dem..
and got all my schedule all sort out so in future i will not be teaching with tiredness khehe...

next..
i dunnoe how to cope everything..
entahlah.. first of all nora im so sorie my attitude towards u...
one word jangan kancong please... and u noe i hate to be force or rush...
if i say i will do means yes i will do but u noe me...
and nora im so sorie about it..
and Anc... i dnnoe how to cope with it..
can i give up??

2009-02-17T00:27:00.004+08:00

hey Lil Fren...
lots of things happen as in my prob and yar i didnt tell u...
u seem to be busy and ive tried my best not to call you at times...
ive started slowly telling probs all to my Dearest..
but enthlah kdg more convenient tok u kot...
coz i noe.. the only on the spot that i can talk to is you...
masing2 busy with own life...
just praying u are happy kaes...
and yar have a nice day save ride and happy life style...

taking care

2009-02-17T00:00:00.005+08:00

time will tell us everything..

im in no position.. feel like i dont make an afford...

lots of things happen..
mouth do as they feel like talking...

feel like crying and shouting...

my mind is mess up...
with my life;
my family;

and friends im sorry if i dun have the time to mit up...

argh!!!!!

i want to talk out but who??
Dear yar he will listen...
he did help me alot...

Lil Fren..
let her be.. she happy at the point of time..
shldnt dsturb her...

Lng Cuzzie...
think nvm...
dun wan to stress her out...

argh!!!

just what am i thinking...
as the days goes by...
.....

2009-02-13T01:41:00.002+08:00

salam...
atlast i cant take dis time to type in...
as u noe no mood or busy or no idea to type but still like dat hahaha...
kae bullshit...

so what am i suppose to post??

lots of things happen since my last post...
fight wif Dear as per normal misunderstanding...
went out with cuzzie
work
i think dats all.... muahahaha
haha.. i wont go in details as its going to be long... insyallah i will update often so dat i can go into details..
its late night and im sleepy....
and yar... i did change my blogskin but hvnt finish fully..
still on UPGRADING....
muahaha..
kaes take care...

2009-02-10T12:44:00.002+08:00

well its been a long time i have not update...
y ehk....
lots of things like busy no mood and all stuff lah....

lots of things happen since my last post...
cuzzie umai is here...
and dat point of time also chinese new year...
and busy with Dear...
and lots lah...

dunnoe what and where should i start...
think later nite den i type out.. coz got to clear up my room and need to go out.. muahaha...

2009-01-21T01:24:00.002+08:00

here im blog again.. late nite..
think dat will my frequent time temporary....
khehe

let u noe something... i feel like i miss somebody....
missing him aready.. esp no msg.. his prepaid low and now i cnt help him till i get my pay.. haiz...
tulah kasi mak u lagi byk2 kan sendiri susah...
i miss fighting wif him and his smell.. ouh no...
Dear!!...muahahaha...

thinking of ending my work after chinese new year i cnt stand it anymore...
im tired of waiting should make a move.. ermm...

klah.. till here...
ouh yar will be busy till end cny.. and cuzzie from aussie will be here so think ill b busy.. so taking care...

2009-01-19T01:31:00.003+08:00

hey im here again late nite in the morning.. haha
everything goes well.. but...

something wanna tell...
i just hate dis dumpd bitch manager...
she really want to get rid off me.. dream on...
not u r the one who hired me...
ill make ur life difficult...
u dare me ill make sure... u will topple one day...
u think im scared.. go on.. u r Malaysian.. anything happen i noe the spore rules more better den u...
u got the wrong person to involve in..
firstly u use my name w/o i relise it.. and damn bitch dat time i just started work only a few bitch... u think i dunnoe anything abt dat place u got me wrong...
den next u try to tell people ard i got problem attitude and next u say i steal..
u say all the water in the office is smelly...
u crazy something wrong with ur nose.. malaysian is more smellier and dats y u like dat...
argh!! i noe u think im crazy saying like dat... but im so angry rite now she drive me crazy!!!

kae2 qilah cool relax...

im going to miss Dear soon.. wont be meeting him soon.. as both of us going to b busy..
hes away dis coming weekend and im working aftrnoon shft...
and chinese new year both of us working.. he working becoz of need to pay his bike and me supporting my life to carry on...
ouh gosh.. sound something terrible...
and one thing.. i want to change work.. any recommended??
life have been great for me only abit diff...
dats y its called LIFE...
i need my own time.. to think for WATS NEXT??

Dear have been patient with me.. i noe when the month comes hes in a big trouble.. but den i love him lots and lots...
i keep falling in love with u everyday...
u make my life brighter..

okae mcm jiwang pulak.. but its true a sudden of thought of talking abt him and appreciating him...
i really dun talk abt him.. but.. only in me...i only noe and god noes.. how important is he to me...
abit mistake or fite i will cry abt him.. yar i noe im crazy.. and i did say i wont cry for a guy.. its true i mean all my ex i didnt cry but hes the only one i did cry.. coz he really take my heart away... away with him...

2009-01-16T00:53:00.003+08:00

hello der.. should i say morning?? haha its 1250am im blogging...
haha i noe i should be in bed now..
as usual lah not sleeping early...
tomorrow in afternoon shift and also today..
and dats y im here... haha
and soo.. nothing much i had in mind to blog abt...
ermmm....
been slacking at home since monday to tues as im not working...
at home... eat and sleep and soon u will see me like.. balloon should i say.. haha
making my alternative plan aready... just on standy...
if still no respond.. will apply for private o... can i??

on tues i dunnoe wats wrong wif Dear he called and askd me out...
he suppose to be in camp but den.. entahlah kan.. ape angin datang...
but its good dat he was out..
i took the advantage of the situation ask him to send me to granma house at j.e which i plan to do so since morning.. but in the morning wake up early send maternal granma to polycinic for check up den home send gemok to sch and home and cook.. by the time eat i felt so tired and sleepy.. ape lagi tdo lah.. haha... and also i was suppose to accompany nora to "mos" den i told her i dun think so as i noe the meeting will end supper late.. and it was true.. hahaha.. lagi pon dat time baru bangun tdo.. haha

errmmm.. how can i make my life or my days feel meaningful?? as i keep feeling lazy..

and now im in trouble ive promise mum dat i will change my room with my brother and clear it of also i promise nora to go out ti bukit timah.. ouhno.. either so called lari rumah in the morning or just tell nora got soemthing happen haha...

called Lil Fren abt tommorrow mit.. but to no answer.. so let it be den...

and now i think i should go to bed.. or not.. tell u tommorrow will wake up at 11.. haha..
nie mcm org nak masok pinang tkpelah.. haha...
ouh yar i did wake up early dis morning as i had early nite yest.. haha
and tell u i had my sleeping system in proper back.. khehe

kaes taking care...

2009-01-11T23:39:00.004+08:00

tot of changing blog skin but have yet to find one.. nvm.. can do it tommorrow...

how is it guys??

im fine...
had the whole day sleeping i guess...

had another terrible day...
yest Dear bike tyre explode when we was abt to enter expressway from wdlnds avenue 12...
there was this screw or paku quite long i think poke into his tyre...
it was terribly bad..we have to find any tyre shop asap... and so Dear did it...
told him left me at wdlnds and cont to find the shop.. but he insist in the end at gambas rd near sebawang rd the bike tyre seem to be flat.. and so i have to get down from the bike.. and and i did and in the end he left w/o me... quite bad rite.. haha.. nvm.. had a walk till sun plaza at sembawang... and called nora... she did accompany me.. thanx dearrie... haha... yar i really had a terrible week.. firstly my dad bike den Dear bike.. haiz... bad luck.. after get the tyre fix.. which quite fast as i just sit at sembawang interchange, Dear called me and askd where am i .... fetch me and went to yishun teh tarik for our supper late lunch... den mit my prnts at cwp and head home.. and yar not much thing we did...

and for today wat i do is wake up late do dis and dat surf net den back to sleep wake up eat surf net and cook for late dinner (mee teow) den surf net again.. haha like nothing better to do.. and tell u something dis is the first time i had my afternoon sleep since ive quit my job.. haha...

i noe seems unbelivable...

ouh yar me and Dear had some pics printed out..
mentang2 printer baru..
just now did printing for my mum pulut den i realise my ink colour is abt half aready.. ouh shit!! im dead! ayah will sure scold me one.. as the printer is new and not till 1 week the colour ink almost half gone.. haha...

i dunnoe wat im doing...
trying to figure out...
i did realise i did not take any initiative to find another work instaed wait for the one...
i did had my plan..
if i did not get the spf, ive tot of taking o lvl... after dat will work part time at child care center den taking part time diploma course in early childhood...
but while doing my o's what am i going to work as?? i just cant stay at shell forever.. just feel hate working der...
and i had some trauma to go back in architecture line..
not anymore after dis...
i noe... if ders a will ders a way.. but after experiencing it i feel like its the first and last.. when i think back, what other job can i do??
what a useless me...
how i wish... and its just a wish...

will be another busy upcoming week..
wed will be long hr shft from 7am till 7pm
thurs 2nd shift - 3pm till 11pm
fri 2nd shft - 3pm till 11pm
sat- break day
sun - 2nd shft 3pm till 11pm

so see ard another time..

2009-01-09T10:11:00.002+08:00

salam...
good morning.. not a fresh morning anymore as just woke up bath and eat.. muahaha...
how r u...
ive long type in yar...
ermmm...
as am i getting busy??
or nothing to post??
haha... dunt noe....

life have been great and adapting well... while waiting for my full time job application, i wark part time.. yeah..
at shell only as a cashier.. rather den nothing ders something... khehe..

went for my interview on 2nd jan.. SPF.. and waiting for there reply now.. after dat reach home and yeah.. had something like seoul garden at home.. haha Dear Nora Wakjor family dats all.. not dat alot and not really into a party...
ouh yar Lil Fren came after everything over... haha

sleep quite late and the sat i have to wake up early as i have to work.. haiz.. but its okae.. haha...

after work.. went out wif Dear after such a long time did not have a proper meet up.. and so.. yeah Dear had a bike.. wasso big and i think damn heavy muahaha...
park the bike at esplanade walk to marina.. eat at kfc as im craving for one.. haha (dah kalah kan mcm org mengandung) den walk ard bought him a gift dat is a wallet... den walk to suntec lepak at the garden as we waiting for dis couple Dol & Minah.. yeah.. dis Dol call Dear saying wanna mit up so yeah.. wait dem like an hour plus.. in the end went to marina barrage and mit dem der...
der was so cold and yeah i feel like sleeping man.. luckily got my caramel frap from starbucks.. haha...
den mit up wif Dol&Minah, Pakcik and new fren of dem.. yaeh.. went to changi for makan as Dear is hungry.. den mit up wif Aron for a while and back home.. haha...
reach home almost 12am.. hahaha....

0501.. i went to my old workplace as need to do some handover work..
tell u something as for dat day i eat 4 times a day man.. fuh.. morning before went out i eat mee siam.. den went out wif Lala eat again.. mee soto.. den mitup wif ibu i tell her dat i damn hungry man.. as i bough putu piring, i eat one packet of it haha while waiting my dad at courts.. den went to macdonald for a burger.. den reach home 2 hr later i eat ikan pari bakar... tak ke gemok tu nanti...haha...

06 and 07 work.. but on 07 after work, as im in morning shft, mit up wif Lil Fren and cuzzie went out catch a movie.. IP MAN.. cool man the kung fu.. fuh... den went to toys r us.. as cuzzie bought 'MANKEY" - monkey as my bdae present.. ish dah tua2 gini die kasi bende tu.. hahaha...
went for dinner at habourfront banquet den back home.. but i went mit Dear as he want me to accompany him to go doctor at alexandra hospital.. den way back home...

0801.. dat is yest.. seriously a day to... ermm.. dunnoelah.. haha... went to take my pasport ayah send me.. as der opportunity to go out jln2 as we r in dat area, dad decide to go "ah boy" kedai motor.. and as for me sempat tgk2 helmet haha.. den went to sim lim as ayah want to find something.. in the end we bought a printer together with scanner all which cost ard 90 bucks.. for me okae and worth it man.. haha... den way back home.. and guess wat.. tgh2 jln motor ayah rosak seh.. mula2 jln sikit2 in the end give up i took bus home with dat bulky printer.. fuh.. penat seh tangan lenguh.. haiz experince the worst man... so ayah.. go and check your bike.. and ttakot ar nak naik lagi khehe...

0901.. and today was in afternoon shft.. fuh.. wat makes me happy is Dear is going to fetch me haha.. tkyah lah penat2 balik jln kaki.. hahaha...

and yah.. cant wait cousin from aussie to come here.. yippie... so im looking forward for your arrival kaes..

klah take care dens...

another year older

2009-01-02T00:48:00.000+08:00

salam...
haha yar...
its 2nd january 2009 and happy birthday aqilah...
hope dis year will be a better year..

khehe... now i dun want anything.. nothing.. i just want my interview to success yeah.. pray for me...
keas goodnite wanna sleep tomorrow nd to wake up early...*big smile*

2009-01-01T01:11:00.002+08:00

salam...
firstly, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! DAN SELAMAT MENYAMBUT TAHUN BARU HIJRAH...
khehe...

feel like typing out...

i dunnoe wat im doing lately.. but haiz.. as long i enjoy it..
new resolution.. azam... blom di buat.. but what i noe.. i should make it precious thing in my life and will spend every moment or make it the worth thing in my life..
yar im still down with what have happen no use to dwell on it life have to go on.. and its on going...

this is life and this is real world... you cant ignore it...

once again all the best up ahead...
love you all

2008-12-30T23:53:00.002+08:00

dunnoe what im going to type latest update abt me...
yest last day of half day work... haha..
pretty cool as nobody noes dat im quitting...
went out just now not working today...
went to cck for my part time application...
den went to ica...
back to cck to go cotton on went some shopping hahaha..
den went to banquet wdlnds for dinner.. as my family is not at home...
back home and do housework... khehe part tu mcm paham...
short and simple post from me..
kae lah taking care...

2008-12-28T02:17:00.003+08:00

salam...
good morning.. haha yar im typing here 2.20am... haha jarang kan...
because i told my mum i want a computer table.. and so here im sitting on the new desk and a new chair typing out my post..
fuh.. cool.. kaya.. muahaha..
and ouh yar internet is back.. dats make me online haha...
jeng jeng jeng...
lots of things happen lately.. and yar i didnt mention the one dat im really upset with and i mite get over it soon.. haha

so wats up...
ive been terminate from my work... okae i noe dat word sound like im a bad employee rite2.. haha what to do.. people dun like or many thing dat they just mite want to get rid of us..
its okae..
ive been down with dat lately.. thinking about future.. what am i going to do after this??
hurmph.. still not sure yet...
while getting for a new job.. ive thought of working at shell back.. yar as a part time.. but den.. think abt it again at cck.. haha scared mit the people dat i dun wan...
so yar dats what happen to me..
Lil Witey also.. cool ha.. masok same2 kluar pon same2.. so Lil Witey.. dun forget me yar.. update each other...
and i need your prayers for my interview on 2nd january.. hope it success...

now Dear is happy.. got new bike yar.. happy tu happy lar but menyeksa.. mane nak bayar lagi haiz.. nevermind.. insyaallah ders a way out kae sayang...

new years coming and ive yet to think my azam..
what i noe is im going to work hard and hope i wont hurt anybody.. and happy ending for my family...
so wats ur azam??

updates soon.. take care...

2008-12-26T22:15:00.003+08:00

salam..
hey der... wassup?? muahaha...
okae2 aku mcm
paham... hahaha...
lots of things happen lately... ermmm...
how should i
start or where??

pass weekends nothing much i do.. just went out for
recce and sun went out wif family dad side at suntec for lunch and mit Dear and
head down to vivo..
went for the home team exhibition and i sign up for
spf.. fuh..
i was allowed to go for 2nd interview... was happy and hopefully
ill get for the admission.. i will go for next interview on 2nd jan.. pray for
me aites...
[i think i did mention on my last post khehe]

got my pay
by cheque on tues.. but bad news too...
not to mention here..
after work
me and roszie went out.. tk pernah2 kite klua after work.. as also i need to
find my christmas gift.. haha... went to esplanade and marina square which i
hope i could find the present... but in the end we head down to bugis.. khehe...
bought a mini bear in a santa claus clothes with a voice record... cool...

on wed half day.. me and roszi not in the mood as the news we got the
day before..
waiting for the gift.. i got mp3 khehe and roszi body lotion..
haha...
went out with lala after work... we went to ramen ten for lunch and
frankly tk kenyang seh...
take a walk at vivo as i nd to search another
present.. haha for amazing race which al iman mosque organise on 25th dec... den
went lepaking at the stadium chill and relax...
den mit mu after maghrib ouh
yar before i mit my mum went to take my specs.. khehe ku dah tk potek...
muahaha... kae2 back...
went to cwp.. as idham wanna eat pizza but.. the qeue was so
long.. so persuade him we eat at banquet.. khehe... and went back....
not in the mood to pick up anybody calls.. and msg nora and
told her dat im sorie...

thurs.. al ian amazing race.. as im still not in the mood i
decided to went late.. but in the end i got panic and rush up... poncho and some
other things not ready and everybody wait for me i feel like shit man... haha..
slacking.. mit abbie den went to temegong.. it end early den expected.. in the
end me nora sharifah and her cuzzie amirul head down to west mall to catch a
movie... the bedtime story.. it was fun and first time i laugh my heart hearted
in the cinema for the first time... hahaha.. lupe sekejap masalah aku nie..
khehe.. den went back home and i forget my mum ice cream hahaha... watch cicak
man till midnight..khehe.. and today morning as penormal went to work.. pack my
things.. khehe and clear my table.. yar im leaving y work.. last will be on
monday.. dun ask me anything.. coz.. ders reason upon it.. just dun want to
bring up again.. as y wounds are healing...

thanx guyz for reading.. i noe it was a long post.. but yar
long after den updates...
photos ermm.. sorrie.. ive upload it from hp but not here..
check our my friendster or facebook kaes..

see u till next time..

2008-12-22T13:43:00.001+08:00

salam...
hey yar.. i noe long never update dun feel like updating .. khehe
im fine.. life as usually ders up and down...
klah insyaallah ill update again soon...

2008-12-18T09:18:00.002+08:00

under this smile theres a tears...
and under this tears there will someone who will wipe it...

yar you love me so much and understand me more u will know what i have been went through or what will i went through...
because of you people im strong and because of you people also i keep smiling and happy...

Dear you are one of them.. yar i know at times i dont tell u stuff but at times when it came it pressure me alot...
and and u treat me very well with patience and thanx for that.. love you much...
keep making me happy and i wont fall into the category of depression...

yar i noe i reveal that to you..
and u r speechless...
and im sorry should tell u earlier..
but im okae after leaving me alone or giving me your ears....
thanx so much...
i love you....

2008-12-17T12:42:00.001+08:00

latest song dat i addicted...
and yes... ku merindu si dia....
miss u sayang...

[Shah:]
Ku merindu,
Merindu cinta yang tulus dari hatimu
Selalu ku impikan hidup bersamamu
Ku kan selalu menanti balasan cintamu

[Ella:]
Ku berjanji,
Berjanji mencintaimu sepenuh jiwaku
Ku tak akan mendustakan cinta kekasihku
Agar kau dapat menerima cintaku

Ku selalu, merindu cintamu
Yang selalu ada di jiwaku

[Chorus:]
Aku tahu kau pun cinta
Tapi malu tuk berkata
Usah kau ragui cintaku
Ku tetap merindu

Aku tahu kau pun cinta
Tapi malu tuk berkata
Ku tunggu jawapan cintamu
Ku tetap merindu

Di saat ini hatiku rindu belaian cinta darimu
Ku harap kau merestui cinta dariku
Yang selalu setia menunggu dirimu…

2008-12-17T10:02:00.003+08:00

selamat pagi...
im happy today.. and i dun mind feel sleepy.. khehe
Lil Fren thanx alot.. i noe its a last min mit up i think dats better rite...
should wen out together again one day...
miss going out wif u...
and after all the confession i understand alot..
dats better to noe the truth...
so so dun hide anything more okae...
love u lots...
and all the best to your future...
and and... i understand you better now im happy for you...
love u lots!!

2008-12-16T12:03:00.003+08:00

ouh yest is 15 December 2008
wohoo... anybody noes what is the dAte for...
its a year of our relationship...
haha...
okae nothing special happen as im still in k.l haha...
but we still remember... and dis sat is to catch up.. haha
and i missssss him so much as.. its been 3 weeks we never met.. haha
Dear i miss you so much...

i dun forget the important dates..
its been a year with you and lots of things we have been go through together hope this will last long and forever...
and thanx for all ur sacrifice and patience all dis while...
will fall in love wif you again and again...
love you much...

2008-12-16T11:52:00.003+08:00

salam...
hey...
i noe i noe...
long never do posting as did told yar dat last week been lazy to update and so i didnt did any since my last post... and i did promise about my pics at tioman but but ive yet to receive from my couzzie so be abit patience...
and i just came back from my second holiday yesterday...
khehe another weekend holiday...
muahaha
so where i go?? i went to K.L
nothing much... alot of window shopping as it was a last min trip.. and i didnt prepare any money muahaha... so no worries.. khehe...
but atleast had fun...
will upload soon when cuzzie have seen me the pics... muahaha

its been great in dec yar...
last week i only have 4 working days dis week too and next week will be 3.5days haha
woooo.....
aqilah is having fun...
haha.. so will post pics soon.. hopefully soon... haha

2008-12-10T15:33:00.002+08:00

hey yar..olla...
yar i noe i prommise to give a long post last nite.. but i did not...
sorry...
its about my weekend and trip to tioman..
khehehe

it was fun.. exciting.. almost i didnt get to snorkel but in the end i get it.. wohooo...
hahahaha
fun kan fun kan...
ermmm... will post pics soon once i receive it from cuzzie...

actually lately i dun have the feel to type out a long post.. but i only can give the overall comments...
khehe

okae 3weeks to go... so fast and im turning 20!! ouhman!!

ouh i just realise something when somebody asked me "what is your wishlist?"
haha
frankly i never thought of anything.. haha at least i got something in mind...
the only in mind is.. im getting old!! ouhno!! hahaha...
another year of hari tua... muahaha...
3weeks away... and people get ready my present okae.. haha

i want
> adidas flip flop (latest if possible) khehe
> the medium crumpler
> mp3 or mp4
> everlast/fossil watch (its been a long time i want to own one)
> bracelet**

think thats for now... haha...
not much...

ouh another thing is...
spending time with the loves ones!!

2008-12-09T17:12:00.002+08:00

...*yawn*...
yeah im so sleepy....
and lazy to update..
haha ltr ehk..
tonite at home will give a long post as noe im totally sleepy..
khehe

2008-12-04T14:05:00.002+08:00

hey.. im fine...
will be busy today...
work need to clear before went leave tomorrow...
going to Tionman in dis monsoon season.. and people say crazy..
nvm..

yar.. only feel bad for awhile after typing out im ok... back to myself...

ouh yar.. im in a big trouble today...
i should finish my A.R poster by today but i didnt finish or do it...
husnie wanna help yar he did but he also busy so..
i couldnt do it... alot of things to be done as well at home or work...

had a trip down to west coast park last nite...
wif the windy and fresh nite...
sitting down with my lappie had type out a letter...
haha.. not love letter... by my side Dear was playing PSP...
yar i should post last night but instead i was typing out a confession letter...

just dunnoe what to post out.. but nvm...

okae den im off...
and going off to tioman tommorrow morning...
will update as soon i reach back home...
wokaes...

p.s: i just want us to be back what we use to together... and im sorry... hope u will forgive me...
miss you much...

2008-12-03T11:56:00.004+08:00

i should declare im lost...
lost in nowhere...
im excited at the same time im lost...
i dunnoe what should i feel...
come to think no use to think about it but to let it go...
but just to let it go just like that will memories be kept??

i miss the old her
i miss all about her...
its time for her to fly...
let her be as she is happy...
if she is happy and im happy for her...

i hope she will keep all the precious moments...
and all the moments that we have gone through...
nobody is perfect...

u cant turn back the time... but u can pray for it...
i miss school...
i miss the old me of doing everything and anything and even sleep late...

y the sudden i feel this way??
y the sudden of me??

people change.. yar we do as we growing...
from a little girl/boy to a big gerl/boy to a teenage person den growing adult and soon become a wife/husband and a mother/father to a child...
the life....
the real life...

feel like walking down the streets from town.. soon..

seeing the world...

as we live....

what is your goal in life??

for me.. haha..
i have it.. but i fail it somewhere but i just cant stop there...
am i right??
i stand up and theres alot of route to the success...
insyaallah...
i bring my face to the ground to praise You, may u forgive my sins.....

2008-12-03T09:55:00.004+08:00

morning morning morning
im sooooo super duper happy lah seh...
hahaha
asl ehk...
ada ar...
muahahaha...

im going Tioman dis friday...
best kan... fully sponsor some more...
haha...
so Dear im sorry cant spend the weekend with you...
khehe...

hurmph...
lots in mind...
but yeah... chill out wif Lil old granma yest after work at starbucks...
starbuking yar rite.. haha...
i was late as last min dwg to be submitted... nvm.. she dun mind...
reach der sit laugh and im thirst... took me 30 min to decide a drink...
in the end somebody recommend me Dark Cherry Mocha Frappe...
it was sooo nice...
talking, laughing, sharing dats wat we did...
our motive is to get a design for A.R poster in the end.. haha
its great having her.. almost everyweek we mit up.. even weekends...at times...
kdg dtg giler ke angin we went to mosque during weekend and chill der...
hahaha
yar talk bad of her before... u noe i noe... but now shes changing for good.. haha
not the naggy old granma.. haha but getting fun... [kerje akulah nie]
haha
hopefully will get more fun out from her...
fuh...
gym and hiking??
yar.. hahaha...

take care...

2008-12-02T16:30:00.002+08:00

my mind is stuck wif dis FSB...
argh...
i had to do math but the thing is im not sure abt it... ish...

updates...
hahaha...

okae i dunnoe weather i should go Tioman or not...
coz going K.L next week...
and so money money money...

enth asl suddenly i feel like laughing out loud...
i shouldnt mention.. only me noe.. wehee...
i noe it was quite rude.. but den.. haha
tkpe2... haiz..
i just miss it...
Lil Fren... *shake head*
haha
nvm forget it...

2008-12-01T17:19:00.001+08:00

just nice in two weeks time...
still wondering what to get...
im soo happy dat like whoa...
1 yr??
alhamdulilah...
insyaallah akan berkekalan...
amin...

wonders...

2008-12-01T16:57:00.003+08:00

i keep wonder and wondering.. ermmm...
what am i wonder abt yar??
hurmph...
just wonder y people like to 'tunang'/'engage' and 'ikat'/'tie knot' for so long??
u didnt see any obstacle is it or u just dont trust ur partner and scared losing dem??

i always belive dis;
to love someone is to let dem go...

think my way of thinking is way different from others...

y am i suddenly think of dis??
Dear friends make my eyes open...
firstly,
ders dis couple if im not wrong dey just noe each other for some mths and within dat same yr dey get engage... they tie knot for 3yrs... fuh...
u dun trust ur partners is it?? u wont noe wats to come.. first yr together is still romantic after 2 yrs later lets wait and see...
secondly,
ermmm... bad for me to say dis lar... they plan to get married next yr april... too soon?? haha think let me the one who noes it... and for u to find out... but den they got engage recently last saturday... the funny part is all was plan by the guys mum.. and the gerl side was ready.. i was told dat the guy mum intend to hide it and make it a surprise... amazing rite.. haha
i understand the mum situation.. dun worry.. but please lah not funny if u try to make it a surprise...
thirdly,
just found out another of his friend guy propose to her gf... he want dem to tie a knot... haha
the gerl age 17 but tell u dis.. she look older den me.. haha.. and the guy is 21... okae2
its their life...

and so all the above is a real fact and all this 3 is from Dear groups of friend...
haha
me??
wait long2 lah.. haha
im dun want to rush things out.. i think Dear will be the last one to married just becos of me...
haha...

2008-11-30T22:39:00.003+08:00

*yawn*
yar i noe i shouldnt be here.. but den think of blogging..

so how peeps??
haha..
im fine i think im okae and leading a happy life.. haha...

atlast Dear understand me alot.. haha...
he declare alot of things and im sooo happy..
tanx Dear.. dun worry u will be mine always... love u much...

nothing happen lately...

Friday>
after work (finish late) went to expo wif couzzy (kak nana)...
went down for the IT show..
she called me in the morning as askd me weather i wanna go or not.. and decided yar i should haha...
get my external hardisk and thumbdrive..
and whoa.. its below my budget lah seh.. murah
haha
its 160GB and 4GB thumbdrive which cost me below hundred.. haha...
kaes...
den went to T3 for our super late dinner haha...
went to Earle Swensen..
fuh the food is supper damn slow.. but we got free salad to fill our stomach first...
haha...
took cab down back home.. i noe.. mcm OKB kan hahaha...

Saturday>
should wake up late.. den ibu disturb me.. haha..
but.. i was woke up ard 7 and sleep back.. haha...
actually i had plan my saturday outing nicely.. but den ibu wanna go out..
and decided to cancel all my appt just to have family outing...
ibu take almost half a day to decide whr she want to go.. and in the end we decided to go CWP haha...
we had lunch at swensen and biaselah adik2 aku tukang ketok ajer...
hahaha
Dear join us for lunch as we had plan to go out..
head down to expo together with razmy and farhana Dear friend...
again i was der.. tot of going Jhon Little sale.. but den when i was out from the it show it was 8.. whoa supper late haha...
i was searching for webcam.. and yar i found it.. haha just $19 and the quality is not bad and its from creative.. haha
den went to bedok corner.. i was supper hungry.. and yet another waits.. haha
i order fried kuey teow but den supper damn slow.. in the end Dear cancel for me and i share wif farhana...
hahaha...
tot of going mustafa to get stuff.. in the end head back home...
i dunnoe wats wif me.. i was supper damn tired...
think coz of the early morning and had a supper late nite..
haha...

Sunday>
slacking at home...
haha
farhanah msg wanna go expo but den better stay home.. haha
dun wan to hear ibu nag...
sakit telinga ku...
but den Dear bike his brother use it.. haha

...............................................................................

okae... back...
ill be signing on end of Dec..
muktamad...
hahaha...

kae den i should get back t sleep....
nites..
*yawn*

2008-11-27T12:56:00.002+08:00

we were as one babe
for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting
that you would always be mine
now you want to be free
so I'm letting you fly
cause i know in my heart babe
our love will never die,no!

you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
boy don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

i ain't gonna cry no
and i won't beg you to stay
if you're determined to leave boy
i will not stand in your way
but inevitably you'll be back again
cause ya know in your heart babe
our love will never end no
you'll always be a part of me
i'm part of you indefinitely
boy don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

i know that you'll be back boy
when your days and your nights get a little bit colder ooohhh
i know that,you'll be right back, baby
oh, baby believe me it's only a matter of time
of time

you'll always be a part of me (oooohhhh)
i'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
boy don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on (and we will linger on)
time cant erase a feeling this strong (ohhhh)
no way you're never gonna shake me (oh baby)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

you'll always be a part of me (yeah yeah oooohhhh)
i'm part of you indefinitely (oooohhhh)
boy don't you know you can't escape me (ooooohhhhhh)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby (no no)
and we'll linger on (you and I will always be)
time cant erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me (you & I)
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby (you & I)

you and i will always be
no way your never gonna shake me
no way your never gonna shake me
you and i will always be

dear Mr Dear... for ur info.. i miss u so much.. much and much...
yar we mite be fite but i always say dis to you... I HATE YOU... deep in my heart ill always love you..
nothing can replace you..
i will be urs definitely.. and only you...

2008-11-26T10:20:00.010+08:00

good morning...

how r u today??
hope everything going well... khehe...
me... ermmm.. sincerely im doing nothing at work..
got think of not coming today but drag myself to work...
and in the end my team leader is on mc...
argh.. nvm...
actually ive nothing to post lately...
everyday is a same day to me..work and home...
haha kes dah broke nyer pasal.. muahaha...

im thinking of my holiday of the year..
also need to save up to go aussie (hopefully) my next yr before april...
haha...
dis yr trip will be k.l... wow.. its like been long time never go there and so...
alot of things plan ahead of what ill be getting..
haha...
decided and confirm ill be going on the 12 of dec till 15 of dec...
weeeeheeee.... so anybody nak pesan pape?? haha...
ouh 15 dec.. hopefully reach singapore b4 5... khehe...
u noe i noe wats going on on dat day...
khehe...

and so...

yar ive yet to buy the stuff.. i mite b using alot of money coz alot of things to do and to buy...
and and...
i need somebody to accompany me to buy the stuff..
or easy to go to town...
thiking to bring my 'lecturer' but den nanti tk abis2 minta makan den dah belikan mainan minta balik.. haha...
think i bring him.. lama tk ajak die klua kan...

ajak si 'volcano' die exam...

si 'galar' mesti nak punya.. ahaha...

think i should bring dem out...
so mr setan i dun think i wanna askd u out...
and mr Dear... wats ur weekend plan?? cant cnfrm now as ur friends must have a plan rite...

(step cute ajer.....*blueks*)
and yar...
the rest of my friends even my kakak sedare is having exam..
argh.. not the rite time uh
nvm.. need to get the stuff clear asap.. haha...
u noe rite...

i miss Dear so much.. both our prepaid is empty and so dats y.. haha
i miss u Dear..
gaduh, gaduh jugak....
sayang, tetap rindu...
hahaha

klah ive been talking bullshit here..
better i off soon..
so tc yar...

2008-11-24T11:28:00.004+08:00

actually alot of things happen btwn me and Dear lately..
should not mention or not my mind wont be at ease...
i only need him to understand what i want to do.. as im still young...
i have to askd advice...
i want to go wak yus house but due to my exlink i cant get der...
haiz...
small matter he wanna blow it big..
yar when i mit him he was smiling like nothing have happn and i was the one who feel guilt...
but i noe wat was in his heart.. but i dunnoe when should i mit him and have a talk...
its been long since we wanna to have the talk but den again...
argh!!!...
what should i do??
leave him and go for my career??
if he love me he will still be der??
ouh everything in my mind..
kae2 i should stop...
get back to work..
kae den cont some other time..
tc...

2008-11-24T09:30:00.002+08:00

selamat pagi...
seblom kite mulakan mari kite sedekah alfatihah kepada arwah bapak Aron (which im not sure his late father name)
he passed away on saturday after maghrib dan dikebumikan pada hari ahad lepas zohor...
semoga roh nyer dicucuri rahmat...

..............................................

hey yar... hows everybody is doing??
im fine alhamdulilah...
as per planned i will not meeting Dear for the pass weekend... but den... something unpredictable happen.. so meeting him saturday and sunday...

saturday after maghrib, Dear msg me telling me dat Aron father was in critical condition in hosp and will passed away anytime soon... and Dear keep complaining dat his bro is not back yet as he nd to use the bike... so i told him to wait patiently... and hr ltr or less im not dat sure.. Dear msg me and tell me dat Aron father have passed away innalillahiwainnailahirajiun... den Dear msg me to get ready as he fetching me and we will be going to hosp... as all his friend was der...
Aron late father was a healthy man.. still remeber raya time...
what i heard from the rest his father suddenly passed out at home.. and his blood pressure was low... and the rest i should not mention...

sunday... Dear wake up late.. haha i give him a kol and he tot it was 7am padahal dah pukul 10.30 am seh...hahaha...
he rush bath and everything and fecth me ard 11.30.. haha fast game lah seh...
tau pon lambat...
straight to Aron house and lots of people der...

ard 3.45 me and Dear make a move as the rest still want to stay to help out...
Dear was suppose to be in camp by 8pm.. and so he look tired and i was feeling sleepy and so home sweet home..

dat was suppose to be my weekend.. haha nothing much happen only waiting for next weekend.. my weekend get away.. haha... tot of going out wif siblings... khehe...
so till here.. tc...

and please i hate to argue wif u abt it again and again.. just do watever we want to do... if in future something not rite happen lets dun blame anyone of us...

2008-11-21T09:55:00.004+08:00

okae...
lets do some posting...
a long one?? dunnoe yet...
my body is aching... totally pain... semalam nyer salah bantal lah nie... and i feel totally lazy to do work today haha.. on the weekend mood aready.. haha
although dis weekend nothing much of happening just home stay weekend... woohoo... atlast...
haha
Dear is in camp having marathon if im not wrong only mit him aftr raye haji.. haha sooo long...
last nite was easy fall sleep but... becoz of the aching i couldnt sleep... feel like crying coz of the pain.. haha...
i need to go for urut or spa [too expensive haha] planning to call a tukang urut over my house to urut my body which i plan to do since early of the year but den again tk tr panggil... haha.. and now i really cant bare it so i have to urut...
dah mcm org tua kan...

nothing much happen in life dis few days... only busy werking and back home late nites...

yesterday having a youth meeting.. haha funny kan kate nak quit tapi tetap dtg...
when comes to think back.. what will happen to the future youth while nobody lead dem to the rite path...
as u can see nowadays youth... hows their attitude...
i cant deny on myself but im part of dem also but difference in some ways...
so... the youth have plan alots.. and guess what im not concentrating and u.s keep looking at me...
shit.. haha i hate it.. kalau lah aku tau aku tk ajak Dear jalan raya...
people will think differently if u have a bf or gf.. but as for me.. i noe what im doing... the pros and the cons...
and he really didnt effect me in any ways...
kae back to the youth...
ouh i didnt concentrate so not much things im going to say... y?? coz im having a bad headache and fell soo sleepy and as u noe having the 'salah bantal' and my body is aching.. haha
so for the coming mth.. amazing race... we only like have 4 weeks for meeting... i tell u something i really hate it people... its like tooooooo last min.. haha...
but i got the rough idea who to attract with....

"why dun we do dis... family amazing race?? as we need the parents to understand what youth mosque is doing firstly we attract the parent den the kids.. so parents will allow dem to participate in our future event... am i rite?? all start with the parents... so we have dis kids and parents to join for the amzing race... isnt dat great... going to be a big event.. ahaha..."

but its an impact what u guys wanna an end year impact event... so y dun we have it?? hahaha..

next stop...

dear Lil Fren...
long never heard from u?? how r u?? how have u been doing?? hope u recover soon.. heard u can walk but not as a kangaroo rite...
its not dat i dun wan to give u a kol.. but the way u talk.. i just hate it...
and u r totally change not the "____" dat i noe before...
nevermind.. im praying for your wellness... and everything dat u do... msg me soon aites...
ouh yar wanna askd...
what is ur difination of friendship??
hope u could ans me soon...

Dear... i miss you alot... i wanna talk to you but by the time i rch home i just dun have the energy to talk.. askd my mum.. perut lapar tapi die punyer mls nak mkn semacm.. haha... hope u doing fine in camp.. haha...
so our next mit will be long aftr weekends rite..
ouh anyway heard u getting ur bike next weekend rite... haha..
got ur bike and soon u see ur hp somebody will askd u to fetch.. haha.. tau kan sape haha...
not often but we try to get back like last time... twice a week... psl minyak ehk.. alamak tau tkyh beli mtr besar kan.. haha...
watever it is.. ride safely.. and.. dun ever leave me okae...

last nite ibu askd me.. "kak jadi join SPF??" and i was abit surprise.. im still confuse weather i should join or not... i really hate it.. hate Dear... y couldnt he understand me.. SPF jamin masa depan per... argh!! dunnoe lah trying not to get so aggressive.. Dear have told me if i still join SPF watever he do next yr i shouldnt find out or easy say do our own things for our work but still we attach... crazy kan.. he just think SPF got many guys.. argh!! pls lah...

TO LOVE SOMEONE IS TO LET GO OF DEM...
IF THEY TRULY LOVE YOU
THEY WILL STICK TO YOU....

okae dats it.. i think its soo long kan3.. byk my merepeks haha.. hope u understand.. tk phm buat bodoh... tc...

salam sayang
aqilah.. muahaha

2008-11-20T14:32:00.000+08:00

my body is aching....
salah bantal lah seh...
firstly it feels like somebody poking on my right shoulder...
and lama2 naik ke kepala seh... belakang kepala...
and now my head is sooo heavy...
and im having a headache now...
so mr U. Syakir can i dun attend ur meeting??
hahaha...

2008-11-20T11:00:00.003+08:00

moments of memory...

soon ill be busy with lots stuff includes the personal..
about work sure next week another start of busy week again...

personal stuff such as...
> web page
> a book collage of u.a
> a book collage of the memories of him and me
> and a card collage

and so...
money
money
money...
haha will be use alot... and also including all upcoming birthday urgh!!...
and yar... birthday think i still owe someone a present but i forget... haha
ill askd her soon.. haha

2008-11-19T10:16:00.004+08:00

now i remember something...
here is my list of schedule for the next coming mth...
lots of things to be done but no choice priority my work come first.. haha

> AYC meeting ; Thursday 201108
[venue A.I conference room]

>Al Iman web page draft ; email out by Sunday 231108
[ hope to get done on my weekends as Dear is not ard and so i can finish out and got the software]

> Search Dear wallet ; Saturday 291108
[easy say simple shopping to get Dear present for our 1yr relationship]

>Al Iman web page next draft ; by Thursday 041108
[hopefully ideas come...]

> K.L trip... woohooo.. haha.. ; yet to be confirmed

> Important day hahaha... ; Monday 151208
[just cant wait for the day.. haha...]

> also most importantly...getting my lappy haha ; end of december
[ getting macbook... insyaallah kalau diizinkan.. or not HP pon jadilah]

> Al Iman Web page presentation and uploading to web ; end of the year/ end of december
[hopefully i can target by the time]

>Al Iman photography session ; in Year January 2009
[ when school reopens for kindergarten kids... hopefully 2nd January the feeling of first dae of school]

more to be up...

2008-11-19T09:37:00.007+08:00

its been 2 days ive been struggling with my work and at last it come to the end last nite...
since monday ive been working till nites... and last nite was the latests although not the lates... ard 11plus.. haha...
and today....
i feel soo lazy to do my work....
and here i am typing out and also im having a headache and i cant open my eyes... hahaha....
body is aching... haiz..
have to survive till friday and saturday is a non wake up day hahaha...

nothing much to say about just dat my brain is not working yet and so...

guess where are we haha... looks like we at a resort rite.. hahaha...
hopefully can chill again wif dem soon at dis place... tc...

2008-11-18T11:03:00.003+08:00

a quick post...
today was fareed birthday also kak abshah... but i dun have her no... nvm...

send sms to fareed: happy birtday.. hope all your wish come true...
and his reply is..: thanks! hope u last long with ur bf and kahwin same2... haha...
and to mr fareed it is sooo not the funny haha...
and u too mr Fareed all the best and last long with miss Atiqah...
amin...

2008-11-17T10:29:00.003+08:00

Dear i dunnoe y i got dis feeling...
but dis is what i want to tell you...
i miss you so much and im scared of losing you...
you are everything to me almost everything...
i really dun mind what people want to say about me...
but i really cant lose u...
wont let u slip from my hand...
will hold u tight till end of our age...
i really fall in love with u...
fall in love with you again and again...
with sincerely... love you lots...

2008-11-17T09:30:00.004+08:00

good morning...
muahaha...
kae as usual today is monday so alot for me to type in but....
ill type in wats in my mind...
and as usual ive a lot.... to type in... hahaha....
seriously lot.. but for starting a bunch of it mite b end of the day another bunch... okae... haha

so wat i want to type in... my weekends.. haha
ouh yar i got a post for friday but den i realise to forget to post it instead save under draft and so just forget it... haha
friday> half day nothing much... a visit to Lil Fren den lepak wif nora...

saturday> home sweet home... almost half of the day i sleep haha and think my mom mad at me haha but den wat to do....

sunday> went out as early as 10 am... haha went to mosque... tot of taking photograph but den too late hahaha... nvm... we help out ustazah sarah instead... den saw kak pah kecoh seh kite haha... ouh nora was ard also...
we plan to eat at greenridge... sampai sana wait for Dear den once Dear reach all decided to go west coast park and so we tag along lah.. ahaha as both of us also have no solid plan as Dear nd to be back home b4 7 and nd to book in camp b4 8...
so chill and lepak and some giler2 stuff we did kan nora haha...
ard 3 hrs der den kak pah got plan... nora aunty was ard and left both of us nowhr to go... tot of going GH visit my aunty but den Dear dunnoe the way... so forget it and way back home as aizat was at home...
haha nothing much of my weekends... and ibu was surprise dat we was home early for the weekend.. haha...

so for the next 2 weeks i wont be meeting Dear dat much....or easy till 15 dec den dats out next meet...
he having an exercise marathon for two weeks and so he wnt be back home... and once he back ill be busy wif my stuff...
my family have yet to cnfrm when they want to go K.L... so ibu and ayah decide now please....
and most probably it will on raya haji...
so if i were to go dat weekend i dun think ill get to mit Dear so the following weekend den....
just pray hard for his wellness... khehe all the best Dear...

2008-11-13T10:52:00.003+08:00

im missing my Dear aready...

this morning... my cousin, shafran at Australia, send me dis pics... haha
kenangan lama seh...khehe

2008-11-12T13:57:00.003+08:00

kae im addicted to the song below hahaha...
the song quite cool and hidden alot of meaning..
yar u may have nothing...
u r u... and people mite like ur own ways but not othr way...
have your own specialty...
u mite b a superstar on ur own ways...

Dear,
you are my superstar u have ur own ways to handle me and perfectly u handle me with well...
tanx sayang with all the love you shower to me...
it is irreplaceable...

2008-11-12T13:47:00.002+08:00

Andai aku Pasha Ungu
semua wanita kan memburuku
Bila aku Ariel Peterpan
kau yakin ngefans karena orang keren

Sexy badannya.. Mulan Jameela
cantiknya dia seperti aku
Giring Nidji sahabat aku
dekat denganku.. dialah aku..

Tapi kenyataan aku bukan siapa-siapa
kuingin engkau mencintaiku apa adanya

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priai
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

Andai ku Letto wis pasti aku wong jowo
Tapi kenyataan aku bukan siapa-siapa
kuingin engkau mencintaiku apa adanya

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priai
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Kata orang ku mirip Glenn Fredly
suara merdu, wanita jatuh hati
Namun semua itu hanya mimpi bagimu woohoo~

Jadi… semua itu hanya mimpi?
Ya iya laah… masya ya iya dong
duren aja dibelah bukan dibedong

Ku bukan superstar kaya dan terkenal
Ku bukan saudagar yang punya banyak kapal
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priyayi
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai

Kamu bukan super, kamu bukan star
Kalo digabungin kamu bukan superstarr..
Ku bukan bangsawan, ku bukan priai
Ku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai
Haa haa haaa… Haa haa haaa…

top dahh

2008-11-11T12:51:00.007+08:00

hey think im back haha from my weekend and a day mc haha...
nielah org giler namenyer sakit2 nak g kerje jugak haha...
get a 3day mc but waste it just like dat crazy ppl hahaha...
i got lots of stuff to finish up pls!!! help me haha...
my toh guan WP is not submitted yet [ suppose to be last friday] and today is tuesday...
i need to prepare a set of tender drawing for toh guan shich consist of 15 sets [ lucky roszi help me wif all the standards] .... due 20th nov
and my pasir panjang WP is dis friday [ and not started yet] haiz...
and here i am updating my post coz just eaten my medicine coz i just cant stop sneezing and coughing perit tau hahaha...
i really need my energy back to do all the work... mummy help me... dats wat going to happen for today...

ouh wat happen for my weekends here are the updates...

cut short sunday and monday nothing much happen a day rest as i need one haha... sunday almost the whole day i sleep as i need a sleep think as i cnt take my weak body...
monday went dctr eat medicine and sleep haha...
der nothing much rite... haha

saturday hahaha

when i realise ard 7 plus i found my bed dat i sleep on is very hot... haha
when i touch my body i dun belive im having fever...
continue sleeping and woke up at 8.30...
and found myself having a fever... haiz...
i have to wake up as im having alot of apptments...
argh!! how??!! so i have to act as if im not sick... haha or not my my mum will sure nag haha...
but den i took a cautious step like take my breakfast and eat my medicine [as i should not take coz all is may cause to drowsiness] haha but den i have to.. haha
dis are the list of agenda...
> tuition
> meeting
> outing wif Lil Fren...
so... i start my day at 10am till 12.30am...
haha manelah tk sakit sampai ke hari ini.. haha

tuition was great but tiring as im sick.. haha... dis teacher i think she mad mane my aunty tk call to teach tuition he got lotssss of homework and ive been teaching for 2 days haha dat is friday nite and saturday morning... just to finish all of his homework...

and the meeting went off smoothly as nobody noes abt it...ouh should i say personnel meeting as they askd me to help dem to do webpage and i agree went down and discuss abt it... haha and i got a freelance job.. extra money $$$$ khehe.. as a photographer... best kan... they provide me the camera... haha...

Dear pick me up ard 3 plus haha janji pukul brape pukul brape lah aku skluar haha...
sorrie Dear... Dear found out im sick and wanna send me home... but i insist as i say mite b last outing coz he will be bz soon and im having my holiday soon... haha and we went to jelapang meet Lil Fren and partner.. no idea where to went off yet as we plan to watch movie and go to lau pat sat... all during nite time...
in the end we went to ECP... eat our lunch as i nd to take medicine to avoid my fever went up... no worries as i took panadol extra haha only dat can control my temperature ...

next we dunnoe we we wanna head down to so kite main jln and sesat and sampai ke flyers... yeah first time i was der haha.. and we end up chilling and take aircon der... haha...coz i need aircon haha and my nose keep sneezing and sneezing and Lil Fren worried especially Dear haha but im okae i have to be strong

next we went to watch movie at suntec haha...
quantum of solace haha... oklah fun.. haha
den walk ard and me and Lil Fren went seperate ways as her partner friends is at esplanade and Dear friends wanna mit him and we went diff direction...
khehe

Dear,
you make me fall in love with you again and again...
will miss you soon...

2008-11-07T15:41:00.002+08:00

hey ya...
atlast im free haha...
kae about last nite alot of work to do and went back ard 2 am... taxi fare was ard 30 bucks... fuyo.. haha from tp to wdlnds...
and rch office abt 9.30 today and cont till 2 just now... haha
im totally shag.. haha
nothing much to post today so... think till here....
take care

will miss Dear soon

2008-11-06T23:42:00.001+08:00

still at work and lots to finish haiz... wif the sick body feel like want to mc tommorrow can i please david?? haha

2008-11-06T21:06:00.001+08:00

IM STILL AT WORK ARGH!!!!!!! HAHAHA

2008-11-06T09:17:00.006+08:00

good morning....
lets start the day with dis qoute...

A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.

A friend is one who walks in when others walk out

and so... yest went off quite late... no plan after work... was on the way down back home msg Lil Fren about this couple beside me in train who are fighting... ouh no my ears for goodness sake... dah lah bbual pekat... haha
Lil Fren give me a call... we were talking and asking me to drop by BP and told her y not CCK and der we met...
had a little fun down der... walking the whole mall.. haha.. in the end we at cotton on and spending time der...
firstly tot of getting shoe... try and survey and hold it and in the end put it back...
next was a tights have look for the size and in the end put it back
next was a cardigan but ders no size of ours left xs and L so better dun get... haha
and u noe wat... in the end we get a shade for us... haha
we like spending alot of time der only get a small item... kecoh kan...
haha
in the end we sit at macdonald eat ice cream ( like im coughing please) and talk out and laugh till late nite haha...

2008-11-05T12:56:00.005+08:00

hey im sick... haha
had my caough since last week and hoping to get better but instead its getting worst!! ouh mummy help me!!!... haha

wait before i cont i trealise something my hp is soooo silent today whr is Dear?? ive msg him like thrice aready ppd low?? so fast!! den wat?? he should give me an explaination soon... haha

okae... ive lots to write but dis is wat it came thru.. haha...
let the rest be in my mind only lazy to type out and here dat i want u to noe...haha
im changing some parts of my birthday wish or can/ should i say im adding it haha...

> a bracelet
> crumpler bag
> surprise dinner
> ipod classic please... haha hope to get it...
> lap top or desktop
> not forgetting i want my family haha

okae im adding it... hahaha...

kae think dats for now cant write much dis days as im schedule have gone packed again!! ouh no!! haha so c ya ard...

2008-11-04T14:11:00.005+08:00

im smiling wide now i think u.a more wider haha
congrats ustaz amin... hope ur son akan jadi anak soleha khehe...
aku yg excited khehe...

and in june is ustaz syakir wife...
he also got a son haha... im just excited although i just knew him not dat much but im happy for it...
here are the pic of his son...
baby farouq just born...

baby farouq 4 mths

2008-11-04T12:47:00.001+08:00

i dunnoe wat im doing... now i really feel empty... haiz...
argh!!!!!!!!!
enth lah totally bingit and i dunnoe wat im feeling rite now...
Lil Fren whr r u??
Lil witty im sorie...
Dear u getting very weird...

haiz...

2008-11-03T13:33:00.007+08:00

finish my lunch... quite fast?? yeah.... im supper hungry haha
here are the list haha...
lets see... whr do i start...

15 December 2008 (monday)
1yr relationship...
dats a long relationship.. but yeah alhamdulilah...
so wats the plan??

as it falls on Monday Dear decided to take me out on Sunday instead... and the only thing i noe is hes taking me to Sentosa taking cable car khehe... huhu yeah... atlast...
only dats the plan i noe haha...

how about me?? ermmm... should i play apart?? haha think i should...
Dear told me he want to take me out for a dinner dat Sunday instead i had my dinner plan ouh no!!... but nvm... ive told him...
asking him to mit at vivo haha bringing him to fig and olive think haha.... our first try... who pay?? all depends think i get somebody to fix it for me... khehe.. dun worry using my money...
so yar...
Monday dinner at vivo Fig and Olive... nice2...khehe
and i think ill getting him a watch... decided... haha
watch for him and me so called the couple watch.. haha...

so dats basically plan for our 1yr of relationship...

next is my birthday
2nd January (Friday i think)
haha...
so what i want... ermmm... lets make a list... haha
nothing much i think... haha actually be frank i dunnoe what exactly i want...
> a bracelet
> crumpler bag
> surprise dinner
> ipod classic please... haha hope to get it...
> not forgetting i want my family haha

so basically nothing much haha...

so basically dats the ideas... haha ouh what will i getting for him on 28 January is it?? haha a wallet for him i tot of getting it now for him... undecided yet soon i hope to make up my mind... haha...

2008-11-03T12:21:00.003+08:00

hey ya...
nothing much on weekends...
saturday feel like the day is short rch home ard 3 am on friday and had my whole morning to sleep as granma is not ard...
had lunch outing with family late in the afternoon... and nothing much after dat...
sunday not much diff also.. home stay weekend haha... the diff is Dear came over and we lepak at home dats all... tot of going out after maghrib but den feel dun like it after seeing my granfather attitude... haiz...

wat are old folks thinking... we just noe each other and u askd us to tie a knot... and its not funny... and dis is wat i told Dear... "lets breakup for now and we search each other in 2 yrs times so ppl dun have to say anything" haha.. dunnoe wat im thinking... dunnoe weather to take it seriously or not... its good dat he came over and lepak at home rather den we go out lepak at other place and nobody noes wat we r doing only god noes and u will blame our parnts in future and i tell u dis it is not funny...
we just mit each other once a week and spend time ard 8 hrs or more is it wrong?? haiz...
just what r u thinking.... i just dun understand the oldfolks think...
Dear mum have sound already she want us to tie a knot on 2011.... wat?? i dun wan!!
its like im 22... nolah... haiz... and my granfather pls stop ur nonsense...
u treat him as if u really dun like him and u totally like to ungkit and u r talking bad abt me do u noe dat.... haiz...
just forget abt it menyakitkan hati...
think abt it hurts me... argh...
asl org yg 8 tahun kenal baru kahwin blh dan org yg baru setahun jagung nie kenal mesti ikat cepat2...
ish...
da ar dun want to think abt it... nvm lets forget everything...

yar ive nothing to do for now waiting after lunch den ive work to do...
and i feel hungry pls help me... haha...
today my food sooooo lazat haha
wat did i bring haha... ikan lompat2 (ikan sembilang) wif sayur nangka masak lemak... sedap kan haha sambil ku beritahu air liur ku fuh penuh.. kae2 stop ku tgh lapar banget
kae so now i have to act as if i have work to be done khehe tc...

2008-10-31T14:26:00.002+08:00

bermulakan dengan bismillah
disudahi dengan alhamdulilah

assalammualaikum...
khehe...
nothing to post for today... as ive lots of work to do today... and company is letting us off at 5.30 for our bbq latter and so... i have to finish by den!! ouh no!!
haha
hope i could finish by then...
kae so anything ill update soon... tc

2008-10-30T11:09:00.004+08:00

this are the dates people ard me dat i remember...
if i do miss you out leave me a tag and ill add you for me to remember...
starting wif this yr 2008 dec till 2009

15th December
and upmost i hate January...
2nd January
12th January
27th January
28th January
31st January
2nd February
29th March
24th June
14th July
27th July
8th September

and i really cant remember the rest khehe...

and the important is
15th December about 1mth 2weeks... ][ 1yr][
2nd January in 2 mths time khehe... ][ 20 yrs old][
haha just cant wait...

2008-10-29T11:32:00.003+08:00

hello...
how r u??
me im fine smiling al the way haha...
im happy and satisfied since after last nite i got my pizza hut haha... happy seh...
kalah kan org mengandung as im craving for one.. haha
now im wondering how if im pregnant and wish or wanted or craving for something?? haha cnfrm my husband will be totally stress haha...
so...
skip
skip
skip
nothing much happen lately just make my mind think dat dis week is short working week.. haha y??
as mon had P.H and fri mite b 1/2 day as der will be company bbq event... haha...
so oklar not dat bad...
uh?? y im here now... to get rid of this bored although i had stuff and werk to sttle... crazy me rite..
kae2 i think going off to do my work haha...
k den tc!!

2008-10-28T10:03:00.007+08:00

good morning everyone... hahaha...
its been a loooooooong weekend yar and here i am doing some posting...
so where do i start...

> monday
nothing much happen but its happening.. ermmm... is it??
let see...
had breakfast wif Dear... ][ as we suppose to go out the nite before but memandangkan ade tetamu di rumah so decided not to go out instead had breakfast wif him...][
and its like our first time had breakfast together...
we went to geylang... ][ fuh... jauh kan... craving for soup lidah haha... jgn fikir bukan2!! hahaha][
Dear told me dat his family went to picnic and his parents askd us to join and sooo... after we had our breakfast we went to ecp....
nothing much we do.. just relaxing ard..
and Dear mandi laut wif all his cousin and i was by the shore took pics of dem and not miss out is me!! haha now i realise how fat Dear his haha *sorie*

ard 2.45 we was otw home as Dear have to go to work...
but...

> sunday
nothing much happen in the morning as im having a great migrain the day before...
so i start my day at 12 pm haha pretty late and i dun feel like waking up...
as for another 3 hrs nothing much happen... by 4 pm we getting ready to go out... as plan we going jp.. as we start out journy pretty late rite.. haha we took mrt... and dis lil boy by the name of irfan he really wanted to take train and he was sooo happy dat atlast he on board...
and i took the advantage to do some mini shopping...
skip
skip
skip
wokae next we proceed to cwp haha
bought the two boys ][ irfan and idham][ a mini truck wif a controller below my budget haha and dey are happy to have it...

> saturday
i was awake very early but not as early.. haha
sleep ard 12am midnight...
and i have to wake up as need to help my mum to do some work... as im inviting my friend over...
as per inform to dear he should fetch me at 12pm... but instead he came at 11am... as im still busuk... haha
wat i care cont my work and i also bully him to do some also... haha
by 12 im ready by 1215 sempat g isi minyak went off to sengkang.. norlin house...
she make some open house and bdae party...
ard 2 pm im off to BP for raya haha... masih beraya... wakaka
and for the first time i bring Dear along and mit dem... i was scared and quite nervous haha... but den everything quite well but bile kite keluar jer tgh tunggu lift di situ lah u.a dan u.s tny mcm2 soalan...
esp in the lift...
u.s: dayat awk tingal mana
D: bukit panjang jugak
u.s: awak related dgn aqilah?? abang ker abang sedare ker??
dalam ati aku mcm nak scotch tape ajer mulut die haha...
D: *shake his head*
A: nope
u.a: *smile*
and ders go my heart: *ouh no*
haha...
even bila da sampai bwh u.a lagi boleh pelawa naik kereta die and yar i did accept haha...
byk sesi soal jwb ku kene.. haiz... dis is wat i hate haha.. tapi tkpe.. this relationship ikhlas so no worrie...
so end at my house and der dey go off but im not... as im having a bad migrain... totally bad... haha

2008-10-24T09:12:00.001+08:00

good morning.... *yawn*...
haha today im early to work superb early haha
think i dun have to pack my food and dats y haha...
im soooooooooooo sleeeeeeeepy as i sleep ard 12?? haha
some house stuff to settle...
kae i think i have to go doing my work... tc...

ouh yar TGIF... haha brb...

2008-10-23T10:37:00.001+08:00

*yawn* morning...
im sleepy.. help me!!
now o have nothing to do...
my team leader is not ard... and my werk now is hanging
urgh!! i noe i also take mc haha...

2008-10-22T11:18:00.001+08:00

Seindah
Tiada lagi
Kau ku ingatkan
Sayang kau hilang

Menanti
Biar sampai akhir hayat ku di
Dunia ini

Kau tahu bertapa
Ku sayang pada mu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti

Hanya takdir
Menentukan ia
Oh belaian jiwa

Oh angin
Sampaikan laguku padanya
Yang sedih pilu

Terima lah
Lagu ku jadi teman hidup mu
Untuk selamanya

Kau tahu bertapa
Ku sayang pada mu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti

Hanya takdir
Menentukan ia
Oh belaian jiwa

"Sayang kembalilah kepada ku....Ku rindu belaian mu....Ku harap kita akan bersama (selamanya)

Kau tahu bertapa
Ku sayang pada mu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti

Hanya takdir
Menentukan ia
Oh belaian jiwa

Sayang padamu
Hanya bidadari
Sebagai ganti

Hanya takdir
Menentukan ia
Belaian
Oh belaian jiwa
Belaian oh belaian jiwa

2008-10-22T09:13:00.003+08:00

*round of applause* im early to werk today haha...
ouh...im fine.. just dat still lots of thing distract me but im trying to run away from him like once i wake up bath settle myself... everything and straight headed to work and will always be home late... hahaha...
for the first time i wake up and smile once i saw my mum haha i dunnoe weather a happy smile or sacastic smile... hurmph
i just dunnoe y i still cant accept my new environment now...
mum is not working anymore... so i think dats make me staying away more often...
as im having problem with Dear and so i dunnoe where to go and will headed to 704.. haha [u noe i noe]
no pack of lunch from home today... i was bankrupt aready lar pls cook for me...
haha

i dunnoe weather shuold i continue to treat him dis way or let have discussion...
soon i still need him... i cant leave alone... dats what i realise esp in my condition rite now... i need him to understand me dats all...